Why do I do this to myself. I always sit here and start thinking of all these different things going on in my head, and get upset about them.
I am missing all my friends I have loved and lost this past year or two. I keep trying to tell myself I have to remember the good times, and I do...all the time. I just can't stop thinking of them. Everything seems to remind me of them in some way or another.
They wouldn't want me to get upset over it all like I do, but I just don't know what else to say or do.
Everyday, I miss Lin. I can't just pick up the phone anymore and just say "I'm popping over to see you." or even just to have that 'quick chat' with her. She kept telling me how she didn't have too long left, but I didn't listen and just took it with a pinch of salt. I wish I listened and maybe I would've been able to say goodbye.
I sometimes wonder how people can take life for granted and don't live life to the full...sounds like a cliché, but that's how it is I guess.
I can never be bothered to argue with people anymore, even if it's a disagreement about something so minor.
Feeling loss, guilt, pain and shock...you have to help yourself and get through the tough times. Sometimes these feelings are very overwhelming and frightening, but they are natural feelings when it comes to losing someone close to you. Some people think there is a right way to grieve, but there isn't a right or wrong. You have to deal with it in your own way and get through it slowly or as fast as you wish.
How you grieve all depends on so much different factors...this is just down to your personality and your personal coping style, faith and your life experience. Getting back to 'normal' can take time, but it will happen and you will start to feel happy again. Just be patient with yourself...Trust me, I'm trying!
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